Have you ever looked in the mirror and been completely satisfied with everything that you saw looking back at you? (You’re probably thinking this is going in a different direction than it is…we’ll see.)
Some days I look in the mirror and looking back my way is a strong, beautiful, intelligent princess 👑 but other days, I look at myself and see the 20 pounds I can’t lose, the hairs that continue to grow back, the smile that just doesn’t extend the way it used to.
Have you ever looked in the mirror and felt love and shame for yourself in the same glance? Have you? Have you ever just felt like all the strides you begin to make on life’s rollercoaster are just pushing you backwards rather than bringing you towards your goals? Have you ever?
While going through my diary, I found this entry. It was funny to me because I was feeling these exact emotions this past week. The part of this entry that talks about my strides pushing me backwards is exactly how I felt.
This past week, I was fighting my own demons. Fighting with myself to understand who I am. Fighting with myself to understand my purpose and my next move. Fighting with myself to find out, who I am at my core, AGAIN.
But in seeing this, I realize that growth is a never-ending battle within yourself. Sometimes, you HAVE to take a few steps backwards to be able to look at the bigger picture ahead of you. It is okay to feel these ways….as long as you do not dwell too long or let them overcome you. Although it is hard, at the end of the day, there is greater to come.